Monday, June 29, 2009

as murray plays, I wilt.

I'm taking a break from PhD editing... (only four weeks to go until I either submit,or... well, I don't I suppose!). I have come into NTC to check my e-mails, and am also listening to the Murray match... and also, (I surprise myself) I am scanning for updates on General Assembly... This is the first one I've missed in 16 or so years, and I am finding myself strangely bereft. Mostly because of the people I am not seeing... but also, there is something strangely compelling about the way decisions are made. I have enough distance now from some of the things that troubled me that I have a vague curiosity/strong interest in some aspects of things.

I was moved by the NYI voting... To think that there were a hundred plus people who would have been excluded... and they were able to be involved. I felt it was a dream realised. And, to think that I was involved in thinking/creating/hoping/agitating for that... It feels like a life-time ago, but it feels satisfying. I have also been watching with interest the debates on emergence/emerging and all things postmodern. Sad about the lack of grace involved at points, but pleased that the conversation is taking place in the public sphere. My hopes for the election of General leadership also run strong... that he/she/they will be representative of the whole church, forward thinking, grace-filled... and hopefully at least one of them from outside the USA/Canada...

My last thoughts are on the grief of my workplace right now. NTC is hurting, and of course, that really means that the people who make it are in pain. I still can't really talk about Doc. I/We ache. And my other mentor, who has ceaselessly encouraged me to study Wesley and think and love history and its ways has had a stroke. Such pain.

So... Apart from all of that, it is HOT here right now: that energy-sapping heat that makes you want to lounge, drink long-ice-cold liquid, and fan oneself... not really sit in the study and read and re-read your own thoughts. It's hard to spot mistakes when you've made them!

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